Hey Healthyanna,
Me and you both girl!! Cake and chocolate with happiness, a full 2 litre tub of ice cream for sadness. Crisps & biscuits for frustration & stress. I mean its a menu for every emotion and its been like that all my life. Being diagnosed with type 2 was like a big smack in the face with a garden spade. I have a horrible histories of type 2 in my family, I know what can happen to me, If I choose a biscuit instead of an apple, I’ve seen it first hand and it is like running through hell with gasoline pants on.
I have been on my knees, grieving for my food (but really my emotional attachment to it) and am now at a point where, I have to take every hour as it comes. I have my breakfast at 11am. My lunch at 4pm and my dinner at 9pm. I have found this has combatted my worry of going hungry. My fella has bought me chocolate and I’ve told him to stop sabotaging me. He said it has fruit and nut in it! REALLY! I gave the chocolate to my son and got an apple. I told my fella, if you want to buy me something nice, buy me some fresh strawberries or blueberries, which he did the next day.
I am less emotional now, since my diagnosis at the end of feb, I’ve lost a stone in weight. It has egged me on to do the bsd. I am going to try and be good, but I do finally have it in my head that the biscuit isn’t worth it. Stick at it, your downfall is temporary, get back to it immediately, and you will have more control over your emotional state. Don’t let your moment of madness, spiral you down out of control, beating yourself up, putting yourself down, which will then make you say ‘ well, I’ve blown it, I may as well continue to blow it’ cos blowing it then becomes your excuse to not take control. The best thing to say is. ‘I’ve blown it, crap, ok well I’m not going to blow it again’. My sister used to say ‘I start my diet on a Monday and if I blow it by Wednesday, I have to wait till Monday to restart’ ERM! no you don’t, you restart immediately. She’s 2 stone heavier than me and prediabetic, until she gets it, she will remain in a bad cycle. You can get control, If I can, anyone can, trust me on that. X