Hi Inka13, Leelee, CanadaLiz et al,
Been loving the posts. Inka13, it was the wind that made it cold yesterday. I’m at Sturt doing the winter school and finding it hard to resist morning tea, dessert etc. Eating massive quantities of greens, but slid with morning tea today and dessert on both Monday and Tuesday.
With food prepared, it is easy to lose control of the portions as well. I find I am eating more, and eating whether or not I am hungry at the specified meal time in case I get hungry later and jump in the car to find a McDonalds. Also eating a good breakfast in the hope that it will carry me past temptation at morning tea. But the chocolate brownies this morning, oh yum.
I find I am so scared of feeling hungry. It’s visceral, this fear. If I come back for another winter school I might have to stay outside the school and organise my own food to manage portion size and content.
My addiction is food. Can’t stop at one of anything. Unfortunately, unlike alcohol, it’s not something that one can give up altogether. And I love food. It’s interesting, I like cooking it and I like feeding people. It’s also something at which I seem to be reasonably good so I also love the praise that comes with it. I love finishing a batch of sourdough croissants early in the morning and taking them to work still warm. They are not hard to make, it’s just a process over a couple of days.
BUT, I haven’t had any root vegies, only the one slice of bread as toast at breakfast, and apart from the nibbles and wine on Monday evening, no extra food/wine. Consolation is that one has to walk from the accommodation to the dining hall and then up over the hill to the workshop, then back again for lunch, and dinner. So quite a bit more exercise. I can do it in the cold morning air without needing a puff of ventolin for the asthma. That has to be a bit of a win.
Will weigh on Monday morning and start the 8 weeks over again, but with more exercise this time. I lost muscle as well as fat on the first 8 weeks.
Thanks for letting me confess …