Hi,
Thank you all for your honesty and sharing your inner most feelings on food.
On reading them I learnt a lot.
My own feeling just about me is…
I am addicted to food.
I just want to sit down and eat nice food, sweets cake junk all day every day.
How many times have I, out if the blue said… oh I fancy cake, chicken, pasta, chips, chocolate. Etc etc.
When have I ever said… oh I fancy a bike ride, lift some weights, Hoover the whole house for exercise.. never.
To get me over my food addiction, I have to… believe it or not…. focus on the menu for the next day… plan it out…. I use that time to cut all the carbs out.
I then have a map of food, as I walk through the map .. bit by bit… I fight my urges for carbs… junk etc. I have to work on each hour, sometimes each five minutes just not to eat junk.
My hero, I wish I could copy is captain Lynn.
She read the book twice and followed it to the letter. She lost do much weight in such a short time, she got healthy in such a short time.
Lynn lives alone, is that the secret?
When hubby brings coffee and cake to you, it’s a hard temptation.
When hubby says he’s hungry and you make a meal for two when you really didn’t need to eat just then.
I am not blaming hubby, it’s my fault for not saying, oh not just now , put the cake back in the kitchen for later ( like never). Or I could just make him food and omit me.
I do eat more when I am bored, unhappy, lonely, tired, fed up, moody, angry, feeling badly done to, poor, ill, etc etc..
How many times I have come into the house, straight to the kitchen, put food in my mouth, and not noticed or even tasted it? Millions, zillions bagillions of times. It’s just programmed into my sub consciousness.
All the above is my burden, that I carry every day.
To me, I feel as if I am carrying a mountain, so easy to give up the struggle. It is SO HARD!!
That’s why I find it hard to change. I have to break a task down into baby steps.
I share my breaking things down smaller, or spreading the change over a week instead of immediate as I know how easy it is for me to stop/fail/give up/breakdown/say what’s the point/ or say I will just have this and start tomorrow/or I will start Monday.
I wish for a magic wand to change me into a person who eats to live not lives to eat.
Do you remember in Harry Potter, the wand lessons… swish and flick?
I will hold michaels book above my head and try swish and flicking it. See if the magic that’s within his book and in his words, comes out and works on me.
Love Lucia
Xxx