Imogen, you are not being selfish, I feel exactly the same way, and my feeling this way has hit a decade before you! And you have not failed, you’ve done the best you can with the circumstances you find yourself in. That’s all you can do, that’s all any of us can do. I ripped up the rule book with the first diagnosis and have just winged it since. All I ask is that they do the level best they can do. If they’re not, then I do put my foot down. Baby steps, start small. Start silly. Start ‘wouldn’t mean anything to anyone else but I’ve always wanted to/fancied’. Things have a funny way of snowballing once you start. If you ever want to email me you can find my address via my blog profile. Hugs.
I’m sorry for those of you who are struggling with depression or have someone close who is, it’s not something I feel qualified to speak on, so I can’t add to your discussion there. Sometimes it’s best to say nothing if you can’t. Especially with my tendency to come out with something stupid on (most) occasion.
Oh your walk sounded lovely Frog! Isn’t it nice when you find a little hidden treasure that you weren’t expecting – and almost on your back door too. This is why I have no desire (yet) to travel abroad, there’s so much of my own country I haven’t yet seen, let along England, and I’ve never been to Scotland or Ireland yet!
Ice cream – I cannot for the life of me find the Vanilla Oppo, Frog. My Co-op stocks the Mint and Salted Caramel. All the H&B I have been in have stocked the Caramel. Now, I am not a mint ice cream lover. I ate too much of it in my younger days. Husband and children love it. So, he bought a tub of it, and was still eating my SC! So I thought ‘Right Mister!’ and took a scoop of his. And it’s actually rather nice as mint ice cream goes. The chocolate streaks through it as opposed to choc chips, I am not a lover of frozen choc chips. Chocolate should melt in the mouth, not break teeth. So it depends on whether you hate mint ice cream, or would just rather eat other flavours. Unfortunately it’s an expensive do to buy as it is if you enjoy it, so if you’re not going to like it, is it worth the risk? Probably not.
The Frill sounds promising though?
Avila – no, absolutely not. I looked at the pictures and one of them, the one in like a baguette with leaves and tomatoes? It looked like… polystyrene? Like a pale yellow pool noodle? I wouldn’t eat that, no way, no how. At least the egg gadget keeps your eggs… well… egg like! They probably taste nice, but a lot of it for me where food is concerned is how it looks. So no. I’d pass on that gadget!
Like Autumn here today, it was still dark when I woke up before 6. Only just lightening up now. Raining. I put the ‘flames’ on on my fire and read some of my book with a coffee 🙂 Felt cosy. Glad I’ve been so accomplished this week because I have a feeling my in laws will revise their plans due to the weather and descend on me today. Mark my words.
Had some success in the kitchen yesterday – finally made my spelt pizza base, which was unbelieveable light and airy for a doughy base. There was a slight disaster with the recipe and the dreaded ‘cups’ which now means that I have a freezer full of pizza base… and I and my kitchen were covered in dough… but it will all go, as the children love homemade pizza. At one point I could have cried, my husband walked in the kitchen, burst out laughing and then stopped and backed out as I glared at him. Ate three smallish slices, so finally my pizza craving has been sated. And I also made the Nigella Olive Oil cake as we’re due visitors. It’s lovely. Definitely one for when you’ve got friends over for a meal, and you want a ‘legal’ pudding. I subbed coconut sugar for caster. I would make muffins with it next time, for sure. Very rich and decadent.
Have a great day all, whatever you’re doing. My day is starting with a dental appointment for my son. It can only get better from that, right? 😉