Good Friday everyone….or Saturday for those who are ahead of me!
To all regulars here, each of us face our own demons. I can make any excuse to take a drink. Someone else would use the same excuse for a biscuit or chocolate, or a cigarette. If I am brutally honest with myself, as I was last night, I don’t really want a drink. What I wanted was what went with it, crisps, scratchings, basically…salt or spice. As I had calories left I had a few olives with 10g of cheese. It was good. However, I am already thinking of excuses to drink tonight. After all, it is Friday…there is an A in Friday….I enjoy starting the weekend with a drink…the tv progs are good (I watch a NZ prog called Brokenwood…excellent)…I will be shopping for a baby car seat (stressful?)…the biggest excuse of all….I DESERVE IT….no I don’t….I deserve NOT too! My liver deserves a rest….I deserve not to gain weight…I deserve to feel better…I deserve to not have the dump feeling tomorrow…I deserve to be here as my grandchildren grow up…I deserve to grow older with my lovely Jovis….there are a thousand reasons! My reason for writing this, is so that I can re-read it later and remember not to drink. Meanwhile, I hope it helps anyone else also.
On a plus side. I did another 24 hour fast yesterday and feel on the way to doing it again today.
Take strength from me people and I will in turn take strength from you. There is strength in numbers and we are numerous. Be kind to yourselves and remember you are in control and important!
Solange…so you had a slip up…climb back on the wagon and whip the horses. Good luck. I can feel my resolve weakening already.
Calling, on Heather44, Hello66, onetowatch, dumptynomore, fattyfattyboombooms, EC, LeeLee….call in and say hello! We miss you!
Love to all,
Nonna Mary
xxxx