Thanks everyone😃
I’ve been thinking today … dangerous I know LOL
My weight rarely are me feel bad about myself – until near the end of last year. Part work involves me speaking in front of groups of people and at meetings. I can cope with that, it goes with the territory! But sometimes photos are taken. You know the ones. You’re given a copy, look at it in horror, and want to destroy it! But sometimes a kind person puts one on the notice board, and some get published😱 Add to that trauma, my work uniform was getting steadily tighter. A few time in the past I’ve had a button pop off my jacket at awkward moments! All of that was starting to affect me.
Then I found the BSD.
I’m now in my 23rd week on the BSD. As I posted earlier, today officially became overweight. So what was I thinking?
Instead of worrying that my clothes are too tight and that buttons will gape or pop off, I now have clothes that are steadily getting too big. A nice, but expensive problem to have. I’ll need to go to London in the not too distant future to get a smaller uniform but delaying so it won’t need altering too soon. My health is better, as are my energy levels and thinking processes.
But possibly more important in some ways – I’ve realised today that I actually feel better about myself. A surprise, as I’d not realised I’d started to feel bad! Although I moved to this area nearly a year ago, I’m still having to have meetings with new people and it just doesn’t bother me. They may look at me and see a short, old, grey haired lady. Well, I am only 5ft 2ins, I am 65 (soon to be 66) and my hair is white! But they can’t add ‘fat’ to the list of adjectives😃
Today I realised that I now feel ‘normal’ – something I’ve not really felt for a long time😱 While not exactly lacking in confidence, I now am not now worrying about what people think if me, usually based on what they see. Or the things they can say about me. And that is a major, unexpected benefit of losing so much weight. And it will help me when I have to make some important decisions and have some unpleasant discussions in a month or so😃
Sorry for the essay, but I hope it will help anyone who is not feeling particularly good about themselves at the moment.