Hi Lily,
I completely get your tantrum, most of us have at least one during our journey.
I would suggest you need to spend some time working out a WHY. For some of us there has been an activity we love or a special trip we want to take which our weight prevents us from enjoying. – For some its been a special event they want to look good for. Maybe a reunion or a wedding where they want to look good in the photos. For some its reversing or preventing a health problem. For some its success at a sport. – Every one of us has a different WHY, but it has to be something that means more to you than any temptation provided by food. – It may not be easy to think about now, but perhaps if you think about what it would feel like when you were at the end of the life and looking back, what would you regret not achieving the most.
Then if its going to be a long journey to get to your target break it down into steps. – little mini targets, and work out a reward for yourself for achieveing them. It could be little awards, like when you are ready to move into a different dress size then make it a treat with a trip to a shopping center different to where you normally go. Or if you have something you want to upgrade, then link that to achieving a milestone on your journey. – For example I knew my car would not make it through its MOT and I didn’t enjoy driving it. So I set my 3 stone discard reward as the time to replace it. – I could then spend time researching options and going to car dealers to test drive different models to narrow down the make, model, age of vehicle I was going to buy each time I needed to cope with something.
Another thing I found is that intense exercise, like weight training is great if you are feeling wound up . There was one occasion where I walked into the gym spitting tacks having been dealing with a situation with work on the drive which would best be described like letting Laurel and Hardy loose with a digger. – Within 20 minutes I found that I could share, and laugh about it all with the partner I was working with on the circuit.
I know its difficult to get your head around at the start, but I promise there is a point where you will find your favourate BSD friendly food more appealing than something high carb. I was one of the people who had to walk through some sections of the supermarket focusing on the floor when I first started. (I have to say though that lettuce is not appealing on its own, – But a crisp lettuce used as a wrap for something attractive does work well). – There is also a point you will get to if you stick with it long enough where you will be feeling down and decide to have a carbie “treat” to cheer you up and it doesn’t have the effect on your mood that you expected. Its taken me a few years but I have reached that point.
Finally don’t be too hard on yourself each time you slip up. The food manufacturers have spent a lot of money discovering the science behind what makes us crave their products, and getting formulas designed to be addictive. When the tobacco companies started to realise the writing was on the wall, they started to invest heavily in the processed food industry. – They have created addictive products and you need to treat yourself as gently as you would someone who was trying to give up smoking.