oh collie – I wish I could learn to smile and say nothing – but no – I gob on – and its not at all helpful to people with eating disorders!! why cant I shut it? but I care about them, they care about me
but you are right – I was like them, I STILL am like them, its just that for the moment I have some control
as I walk down the street and see people eating junk food, or watch the piles of crap people put in their trolleys in Tesco – I want to shout from the roof tops
but I AM that person – the one who buys/bought her binge foods in secret – who eats in hiding – who is bitterly ashamed and only lets people see the ok side of her eating habits, who hides food around the house so they are not seen
I don’t want to be like that any more
Starcyl – thank you for your reply also – I was a similar size to you – was wearing 20’s but lots were too tight
– now they are loose but don’t seem to have fallen off yet
I wonder how I managed to walk around like that, but I did,
it is very humbling to hear that you think of me as inspirational, although I don’t feel like that at all, but thank you
and I have no doubt YOU will do it too, you will keep going, and pick yourself when you fall
xx