I have been lurking in the forums for several months now, and have been inspired by the success and mutual support of the members, so I plucked up courage to start my own thread. The purpose of this is to have a record of my ups and downs in the vain hope that maybe, just maybe, I can stabilise my weight once and for all. It is a big ask, and my confidence in that goal is very low at the moment.
I have a chronic history of weight yo-yoing since the age of 10, 36 years ago. I have weighed as much as 97kg (about 15 stone) and as little as 67kg (about 10 and a half stone)(I am 175cm tall), and every weight in between multiple times. My heaviest weight (97kg) was in 2013, then that year I lost 29kg. I have rebounded up by 6kg twice since then, but both times managed to catch it in time (have failed at that in the past), once last year, and once this year. I have done every diet under the sun, like most people here.
I discovered BSD when it was serialised in the Daily Mail in September, bought the book, and in October lost 6kg in exactly one month and one day, easy-peasy. I absolutely love this diet and really felt it was something I could sustain.
However, I have piddled about inconsistently since getting back to goal (68kg) for the first couple of weeks, then, disastrously, tried to do a 5:2 version last week. WHAT A COMPLETE AND UTTER, MONSTROUS, ENORMOUS FAIL that was.
My two fasting days (non-consecutive) were great, 800cals, boom, too easy. But for some unknown, mystery reason, I literally could not stop eating every single one of the five other days. The works…..cake, chocolates, bread, wine, sweets, coffees…..just about everything that I hadn’t even missed, or been craving for the previous month! Some of it was stuff at home, but some was at work and I even went out and bought some of it, like ice-cream! Full on self-destruct mode.
So yesterday I got back on track, with a hangover from Sunday night wine and carb-fest, and upon weighing myself this morning am back to 70.8kg; up nearly 3kg in 3 weeks since back at goal.
I feel panicky and totally down on myself, annoyed, irritated, frustrated, which is why I have turned to the forums; if I record how I’m going, maybe I’ll feel a little more accountable, even if only to myself because it’s there in black and white. Why is this maintenance lark just so hard, it sucks, big time. I can be so disciplined, so focussed, but when the challenge of reaching the goal has gone, so goes the willpower, or whatever it is that makes me successful…….poof, into thin air……
I am doing well again today, so my plan is to just do 800cals a day to shake it off again, the try something OTHER than 5:2, because clearly as it works for most people, the concept of ‘a day off’ doesn’t work for me (even though I know, know, know all this stuff already!). Why do we do this to ourselves.
Thank you for reading if you got this far, hope everyone is doing well today, this lovely sunny day in Queensland 🙂
Rachel 🙂