Good evening everyone, I have just caught up on all of the posts, Marvellous May sounds great, I can volunteer for the June feed if that takes the pressure off, but you will all have to bear with me (I will get thinking of June related titles). Verano have a lovely holiday enjoy yourself and don’t worry if there are any little gains upon your return, Sunshine Girl I’m sorry yours didn’t go to plan, weather is so unpredictable, I’ve not done a cruise yet so the strapping yourself to the bed thing concerned me, I much preferred your way of champagne on the sofa.
I have had a few hiccups this month, and mentally it’s been quite a struggle, I’ve come to realise that I need to be busy all day so I don’t think about food, It’s not that I’m hungry its just that i think about food & diabetes 24/7, its all consuming and taking over my life. I had a horrible weekend and wasted the glorious weather we had as my motivation dipped, I was in a bad mood, and all the jobs I started to do couldn’t be done, or needed more jobs to be done first to enable the original one to be done, so I sat and ate, I had a chocolate bar, a bag of crisps, a small cake, some cheese, along with my normal meals, I then didn’t have any dinner as the fish was off and I didn’t make anything else, I was on a right downer. Today was a new day, went to work, struggled through that, had some chicken for lunch which I’ve now decided I don’t like, sat by the sea for a while starring at it hoping for some help or inspiration, then after work I got a parking ticket, drove home motivated to do some chores but then it started to rain so those then got put on hold, I’m so sorry for the rant but I’ve tried talking to family & friends and they really don’t get it. BS all over the place as you would expect, but today I have eaten well and within 10am and 7pm so I’m happy, I’ve also got my laptop back up and running so reading our messages is now much easier and I will be more consistent. My weight has increased a little, but I hope to get that back on track too.
Anyway enough from me, admiration for everyone on here doing things their way and working towards their goals.
For now, for me It’s One day at a time ……..